Do you ever feel so busy that you wish you could push back time? We are taking a look at Living Intentionally: Day 3 – Decluttering Your Calendar.
I have taken a good look at how I schedule my time lately. I have been praying for months about my roles at my church and what I need to be involved in, along with what I don’t need to be involved in. At this current time in my life, I feel that I need to be involved in my home and family life.
I took out some activities and roles that I will miss, but I feel that I am not able to fully concentrate on right now.
Having homeschooled children, I feel the pressure from people to keep my children socialized. I think that is very important. However, I also feel that there are times when we need to focus on our family unit and not outside socialism.
It was a hard thing to do. Stepping back from things that I have been doing for a few years.
But in another way, it was such a relief! Right now I have nothing to focus on but my family and my work. I don’t feel that I am cheating God. He knows that I gave it a good shot while I felt that I could. This is something that I have been praying about for months. I feel that He showed me what He wanted me to do.
I will continue to work on this. I have a bad habit of feeling like I need to fill in and help people. It’s not necessarily bad, but it can be. When I misuse and abuse it. So for now, my focus needs to be at home. I need to get my house back to being clean and organized. I need to get my family back to be “together”. I need to feel a little less overwhelmed.
So for now, I’ll be cleaning, homeschooling, crocheting and reading my Bible. I’ll still attend church. But for the moment, I am not going to feel pressured to be there all of the time.
I don’t think church should be something that I feel that I have to be there or I’m bad. I don’t like that feeling. I don’t think that God meant for people to have that feeling towards church. I should want to be there.