Today my daughter and I cleaned up and rearranged my Living room. We got just about the whole room cleaned. I’m hoping to finish it tomorrow. I have also started working on my kitchen. I don’t know if that was in my last report or not, but I have not gotten real far on it. I’m hoping to do better this week.
Since I have cut out all of the church activities that I had to do, I have not been to church. I have missed it, but I have seriously enjoyed not feeling guilty about not going. Well, I can’t lie. I still feel guilty. But I feel less guilt. On the other hand, missing the pressure of having to be there at a certain time sure has been relaxing for me. I needed a break I suppose.
This week I may take them to AWANA. They asked me the other day if we could go. So I suppose I really should take them.
I have also added time in the morning to reading Bible studies and listening to the Bible be read to me on my Kindle Fire every morning by using the app called YouVersion. I LOVE IT!! You can also find it here, online. I just find the app much cooler to use. I have been trying to do it while I’m still drinking my coffee in the morning and before I get online. I have actually found that my mornings and days go much smoother by making sure that I make this priority.
I have taken a good look at how I schedule my time lately. I have been praying for months about my roles at my church and what I need to be involved in, along with what I don’t need to be involved in. At this current time in my life, I feel that I need to be involved in my home and family life.
I took out some activities and roles that I will miss, but I feel that I am not able to fully concentrate on right now.
Having homeschooled children, I feel the pressure from people to keep my children socialized. I think that is very important. However, I also feel that there are times when we need to focus on our family unit and not outside socialism.
It was a hard thing to do. Stepping back from things that I have been doing for a few years.
But in another way, it was such a relief! Right now I have nothing to focus on but my family and my work. I don’t feel that I am cheating God. He knows that I gave it a good shot while I felt that I could. This is something that I have been praying about for months. I feel that He showed me what He wanted me to do.
I will continue to work on this. I have a bad habit of feeling like I need to fill in and help people. It’s not necessarily bad, but it can be. When I misuse and abuse it. So for now, my focus needs to be at home. I need to get my house back to being clean and organized. I need to get my family back to be “together”. I need to feel a little less overwhelmed.
So for now, I’ll be cleaning, homeschooling, crocheting and reading my Bible. I’ll still attend church. But for the moment, I am not going to feel pressured to be there all of the time.
I don’t think church should be something that I feel that I have to be there or I’m bad. I don’t like that feeling. I don’t think that God meant for people to have that feeling towards church. I should want to be there.
Since my last post that I posted last about Learning to Live Intentionally, I got sick with the flu and was not able to do anything but rest. Today I was able to start Day 2 – Decluttering Your Surroundings. Please read the blog in the link above for more information! Because I have so many other things to do, I used her advice and did it in small chunks of time. I have decided to start in my kitchen. We have become very lazy in keeping the floor picked up because it is so large.
So today I started in there. Decluttering. Getting rid of what I don’t need. That is a chore for me. I like to keep things. I may use them someday! But some of my very close friends tell me that sometimes that is unhealthy and I need to get rid of things every now and then.
Working in small chunks of time doesn’t get much done in a day, but that’s ok. I’m ok with that. I think I’m ready tomorrow to see what Day 3 is. I am going to keep on working on decluttering my surroundings.
In the mean time, for tonight, I am done working. Right now, I’ve got my boy Gunny cuddled up in my lap. I love kitties in my lap. I also can rest in the knowledge that he’s not off somewhere being naughty while he’s in my lap.
I found this lovely little blog today. A wonderful Christian friend of mine, who by the way is a wonderful role model for being a wife, suggested this today. I looked it up and have decided that I would like to try this. I’m sure that my marriage would like it!
I am behind the times a little. I think they are starting week 3 today. But that’s ok! I can do this on my own time table.
I know that I need to do this challenge and get something from it! The Lord is leading me to make a few changes recently. I am excited to see where this all leads!